Stumbled upon the Future Shorts film festival which is currently in Scandanavia but will be coming to England by the end of the week. Will and I are going to see opening night next Sunday in Brighton.
I’m back in Oxford after a strange month. I got the job grooming at the polo yard. It was amazing, more about that later probably.
I think I may have found someone to take over the tenancy of my room which is good news, I just have to find somewhere to live starting September now- I hope I can find a place though I’m sure I will. Things ended badly with my last house which is not what I wanted but I don’t want to play naive and say I didn’t expect it. I suppose I did all along but not to the degree in which it played out. I erased everyone out of my life, it seemed futile to have their facebooks and I wanted us all to close that chapter and move on, the problems arose when I realised it wouldn’t be enough to delete a fraction, to my sadness I had to do them all. I wanted to say I was sorry to a few I felt I had to say goodbye to but the truth us that I never found the balls to do it. Maybe one day I can put things right, probably not though. Nevertheless, here is some fraction of an apology.
I found in the past blogging was my downfall. The truth is though that to this day I stand by the belief I did not do nothing wrong but my behaviour wasn’t to warrant what happened afterwards, everything that played out. In short, I found someone who wanted me to be happy everyday and I couldn’t get that at Pitcroft and I really needed someone who needed me like that.
Enough on this. I don’t think I’ve ever been this constantly happy before. That will do for now. I am content and I am more than comfortable with the way things panned out- I think all involved are.
I left Reading for the last time in a long time today. It was a relief to leave Pitcroft and clear all my things out and have them back home but saying goodbye to Will’s place was strangely saddening. Saying goodbye to Will was worse.
I had to come back tonight because I have a trial day working at Kirtlington polo club at the schools livery. I hope it all goes well because I’d kill for that job.
And I am sad this month is coming to an end, although it has been an eratic month- I will miss living in Reading and spending so much time with my friends.
The polo tournament was amazing. Everyone did really well and Will, Bobby and Megan won the beginner 1st section. They got AWESOME prizes which made everyone really jealous but they deserved it, the last chukka was amazing. My fam came down to watch my last chukka on Sunday and unfortunately we lost on a run down but it was still a nice fast match so it was good to watch and very even.
I’ve lived at Will’s all month which has been lovely. We’ve had such a crack and he lives near all our other friends so we get to see them all the time. I haven’t been able to play polo since last month because I’ve just been so horribly poor but I still go and watch every week. It’s our final session tomorrow and I’m gutted I can’t afford to play in the mini club tournament. I’m obviously still going to cheer on and also I think there’s a chance I might get most improved novice, I think I deserve it!
I got back from Beach Break Live yesterday night, it was so much fun but the longest four days of my life! Example was AMAZING, Will and I got right to the barriers at the front and it was insane. White Lies were also fantastic, I felt really emotional while watching them.
SUPA tournament begins on Friday, I’m not actually playing until Saturday but I’m joining the keen crowd who are going up to Leamington tomorrow afternoon.
I guess you would have to say I’m ‘SUPA’ excited, oh dear, I kind of regret that already- well it’s happened now. Today I had final practise with my team which was sweet, I think we’ll do pretty well. Sophie, our instructor, made me captain which was really good! My Mama, Granny and Sister are coming up to watch me on Sunday so I hope we make it to the finals to guarantee some good chukkas.
Will is ridiculously excited about camping, I went shopping with him and Bobbly on Monday and they spent over £100 in B&Q buying loads of camping crap, then onto Millets and finally pound land where I splashed out on a flamingo ornament for the camp site, some Will&Kate bunting and two packets of oreo biscuits- camping essentials. The boys bought stuff like- A MASSIVE GAZEBO and A KNIFE WITH 765 DIFFERENT BLADES and bear traps and other important things like that… When we got back Will and I set up one of the tents in his room and camped in it over night. We filled it with the duvet and the sleeping bags and pillows and watched a film then when it got late we drank hot chocolate and told each other ghost stories by torch light. Best night ever.
—Cioran, the new shelton wet/dry
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Future Shorts are great. I first started watching them with Will a couple of weeks ago and now whenever I have a free half hour I always go on youtube to see if anything new and interesting has been posted. It always has.
